The way you operate...

Thu, 06 Jan 2005 03:54:15 GMT

332am

           new livejournal.
            i do this alot.
its friends only this time.
comment please.
ill add you<3

just doesn't add up.

Wed, 05 Jan 2005 22:37:32 GMT

we could live through these letters or forget it all together.

there's one thing I can do nothing about.

it's too much to ask for when there's no attraction anymore.

I want to remember...

just ask the question.

say you won't care.

tried to avoid it.

there's no doubt, there's one thing I can do nothing about.

sdddhfh

Tue, 04 Jan 2005 04:21:39 GMT

robbie and CHASE. yes
this weekend.
kind of WAY excited.

robbie in taft tonight.
i hope i see him.
i missy him.

and..
school is lame.
thanks.

Sun, 02 Jan 2005 22:45:06 GMT

i almost forgot to mention zach gave me a visit last night.

& gerald and i are going to la.
soon.

Sun, 02 Jan 2005 22:25:20 GMT

pictures at micks house.

beth mmhm<3

micks band was way neat.

hahah mick of course.

anyway so we left that party and went on to this party...

yeahhh we own the dance floor..
or table rather<3

sexxx dwarf

we were just dancin' silly.

yea i love my friends<3

jillian had some pretty cool hair.
thanks to gerald.

yea birthday/newyear

Sat, 01 Jan 2005 21:39:03 GMT

went to micks.
good stuff haha i took alot of pictures of him.
puh puh puh puh party at jillians.
got drunk.
puked alot.
got thrown out in the rain.
went to geralds.
tessa and gerald took care of me.
yes another tessa.
<3

hungover for two days...
wtf..
uhm..
didnt really do anything for new years eve cuz i was sick but
i DID play mario<3
yes.

got a new camera.

took pictures of us being wild.

haha.
i like my friends.

i dont have a new years resolution.
someone should help me out on that one.

andandand i have a feeling that this birthday is going to be really pointless.
i dont like getting older.

not at all.

Fri, 31 Dec 2004 00:59:47 GMT

I'm dying for words.

I'm dying for you.

Thu, 30 Dec 2004 09:57:52 GMT

ps

i got a letter in the mail from logan.
i miss him like crazy it almost made me crying.
he seemed so lonely yet content with that fact.
he wrote how hes tired of sandwhiches.
and that he has friends.
one friend thinks hes his gf.
i miss him.

also.
in two days it will have been a year since ...
zachy and such..
glflfh

my birthday.
someone sing to me

Thu, 30 Dec 2004 09:45:00 GMT

so im at stacis house.
i spent the day at melanies.
and chuckie cheese's for my birthday tomorrow
With sarah and staci.
then beths then micks.
then spun<3
fuck yesss
maybe ha<3

Wed, 29 Dec 2004 03:59:36 GMT

soo.
stacis house was fun.
as you know we had a fieldday with her camera.
thennn.
wednesday daniel came over to stacis at like seven in the morning.
thennn melanie came over there.
then me staci daniel and melanie all went to vanessas.
then austin and sean came and got us
plus allison
we went to jack in the box.
and sheeit.
sean is really funny.
then we went to austins and buster and danny came over.

then
me melanie staci buster danny daniel sean and austin went to the park.
then staci me and allison went to allisons
paige allisons sister decided to feed me medicine.
this is what I had..

3 anxiety pills
4 dramamine
1 advil
and snorted one pill of some sort.

and before that i ate an orange

so i felt sick..and they were like just stick your finger down your throat...
so i guess my gag reflexes are pretty neat.
all i did was poke it and i puked all over my hand and all over my legs.
yeah i was pretty much taking a shower in it.
big huge chunks of orange stuff all over me
felt like the stuff thats in pumpkins haha
it was gross.
i was pretty SPUN..

thats how i roll<3

so today i went to beths:):)
then to jeannies:)
thennn now im at melanies♥

tonight i hope ill go to spencers.
get me some candy.
and some hugs.

thennn tomorrow off to beths and then to the show on thursday<3
yeppp.
good stuff.

Mon, 27 Dec 2004 09:47:34 GMT

staci and tessy had a picture day.<3 cute...

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 02:21:07 GMT

yes.
i like a boy.
thank you very much.

<3

TIGRE

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 23:39:12 GMT

New Layout thanks to mick.♥
Yep.
Everyone is doing something today.
Not Tessy:(.

I did go shopping though.
I bought a new sweater.
It's rainbow.
<3

yeah.
IM me.

tigre xo

fgfhfj

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 06:14:55 GMT

So Break is going by fast.
I went to the show and stayed the night with Melanie.
Tuesday night.
went to the mall.
stole some shit.
haha.
took pictures.

went to the dance party at the gate.
saw everyone and their moms.
+staci
+allison
+victoria
+pattycake pal
+met allies sister.

PLUS MICK♥
hottness.

heh.

stayed the night at vanessas
and talked to allison til like 3 in the morning.
her and staci are cute<3
yea...
now im home..
lame

Wed, 22 Dec 2004 00:55:00 GMT

gklkj;;

Tue, 21 Dec 2004 21:48:10 GMT

sleepover cassies.
alcohol.
antidepressants.
ha good stuff.

movies.
brittni staci
buster jordan and the gang.
good stuff.

jerrys tonight.
this plain morning.
::crosses fingers::
i hope my sister isnt there.

<3
fucking comment you slut.

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 18:51:31 GMT

So christmas break is going good.
sleepover friday at austins.
hide and seek.
fun.

kickback at vanessas saturday.
got to see danny again♥

definitely good.

He was impressed by my diease, dyings never been so in.

Fri, 17 Dec 2004 19:05:15 GMT

I`ve always been a visitor to these streets.
Another empty-bellied heart. Another miserable existance.
We are in great need of many hearts, so if your conscience hurts you again throw your love into the streets.
Be selfless, keep your wants few.
Nothing escapes death. Eventually neither will he and woe the world wonderfully, undoubtly.

Forget Bulimic rainbows, I vomit smiles.

What can we call this?
The Romantisitics Conspiracy?
"The" dream. Whatever. I`ll do whatever I can to prolong it.. for as long as I can. And my intentions are always honest, I promise.
I love you, but I`ve choosen Darkness.
Darkness, I love you.
He was impressed by my diease, dyings never been so in.

He gave birth to my pregnant mind. I`m sure they never intended for words to open eyes this wide. The tension to the standstill is like hands to personal parts. They never intended for us to feel this good.
I know, they never thought he could fill the gap.
I`ve covered my previous life in razorlines. I`ve stopped eating like eating was the problem.
He gave birth to my heart attack.

This house is so alone, you`d think it were the holidays.
I`m veinless and I swear I could never be a heroin junkie.
Although I`m sure it`s just that time of year and I`ve always been fond of a good stabbing.

definitely.

Fri, 17 Dec 2004 07:35:10 GMT

Tonight was amazing.
I have a sore throat now..
Hmm I wonder why.
fkfhlk
hahahah.

Tessa has a fatty crush [♥]

definitely.

Thu, 16 Dec 2004 05:02:31 GMT

I made shirts.
My mom is being EXTRA nice.
I'm staying the night with staci tomorrow
& I'll be attending the bled.
& also, going to centennial on friday:)
yippppeee.

faggot.

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 23:49:25 GMT

Okay so everyone thinks im a lesbian.
because of the fact that i love melanie.
and junior high students are pretty lame.
they just dont understand.

yea, everyone hates me.
envious I suppose?
I'm so mean to everyone.
& they hate me for it.
I find it kind of funny.
it's like im going to care that they hate me or something
they obviously hate me becuase im mean and if im mean to them its because
a> im shallow
b> i dont like them
so why do they think i give a fuck?
fglhfgk
i have all the friends i need thanks.

lighter note.
my holes are big.
realll big.
yep
that reminds me of that rap song....

House real BIG,
Cars real BIG,
Belly real BIG,
Everything real BIG...
Rims real BIG,
Pockets real BIG,
Rings real BIG,
Let me tell u how i live...

hah<3

so yea

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 04:24:48 GMT

School is amazingly boring.
Yeah I have good grades and I do absolutely nothing.
I'm smart thanks.
I want to go to the bled show on thursday.
I have a ride there I need a ride home.
Help me out yo.
♥

omgomgomg there's this boy..
he's such a hottie. dang.

yep.

WEEKEND

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 23:34:25 GMT

Fuck me for not updating.
here goes..

Friday♥
I went to the show.
I fucked shit up.
I got to see staci.
meet alot of new people.
buster,danny,aldo,&&such.
yep.
boysnightout
emery
from first to last
good stuff.
Sleepover @ Vanessas.
me vanessa staci and sarah.
w00t.

Saturday♥
watched americas next top model all day cuz we were lazy.
uhm sean austin && scott came to our sleepover for a bit.

Sunday♥
Woke up early as fuckkk.
went to stacis.
went to a play with danny kristina jordan staci and raiven.
ate pizza.
four pieces. haha.
Fattass.
went to kristinas for another one of those oh so neato dance parties.<3
went to MELANIES!
YAYAY
Then I came home.
Melanie gave me her blankey so i wouldnt be cold on the long drive back to taft.
eep tessy loves melanie<3

01.01.2004 </3

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 22:58:12 GMT

I'd honestly like to know what's wrong with me.
It seems so easy to forget he's there until for some reason I see his picture on my myspace and the weirdest things happen..
gfhkhgfjh
I look at his pictures and just out of nowhere start crying.
I've got to be the lamest person ever.
Crushes aren't supposed to last this long.
He has a girlfriend he's obviously moved on shouldn't I?
I looked at her pictures and she says, "he makes my smiles honest."
If she had any idea...I honestly live for the things he says.
I hate how he likes to just start things up whenever he wants then leave them to finish their selves. and when they do he does it again.
it makes absolutely no sense at all.
he's a totally different person around me.
I hate it.
fkjdhfkjgd

yesss

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 22:42:10 GMT

my hair fell out.
and its dead.
like really dead it feels like I have pounds of hair spray in it.
ick.
oh well.
sleepover 3.0 this weekend+show+more.
definitely.

ps MY HOLES ARE GETTING BIGGER. and by holes I mean the ones in my ear lobes.